"i need a moment to deliberate"--alanis morissette
hey
so yesterday was such a random day, fighting all day with boyfriend, met my mom at luby's for dinner, i was unsure about it b/c i've gotten sick there quite a lot, but i was fine yesterday. then we went to my co-worker's house for a jewelry party, which was fun, i got to model some jewelry, fun! but didn't get to keep it (boo, don't models get to keep their clothes? ;) ) nor did i buy anything...then came home, stopped by at allison's to pick up my cd and say bye :(
after that, i came home, went to bed, and then of course started fighting with boyfriend again. i am so confused and hurt and a lot of other things right now. is it smart that we move in together without him having a job, i don't have a salary to support 2 people and i don't want to have that stress, so i say why not move down here, get a job, get an apt until we have enough money for a ring/marriage, etc. he says that would be more expensive (probably)...and i'm hurt b/c i do have beliefs about moving in together and not really feeling comfortable about it...i mean, shouldn't that be taken into consideration? (on a side note: i have said it was a good idea before, then i started thinking about. just giving him a fair trial). it is just soo frustrating. and there have been tears and ugly words spoken...a LOT of ugly words spoken. we are both being selfish, so that kind of sucks. i'm sad.
i want to move out already. now i have to wait until september...again? i thought it had already been sent in for the 7 days, but apparently not. that makes me mad. i'm ready to sign these damn papers...i don't even have any furniture, that's AWESOME. and i want a dog, really bad.
i just got an invite to a co-worker's wedding, i don't really know her, so i prob. won't go, besides it looks like that will be the weekend i should move in most of my stuff...so oh well. this week sucks so far. awesome.
so yesterday was such a random day, fighting all day with boyfriend, met my mom at luby's for dinner, i was unsure about it b/c i've gotten sick there quite a lot, but i was fine yesterday. then we went to my co-worker's house for a jewelry party, which was fun, i got to model some jewelry, fun! but didn't get to keep it (boo, don't models get to keep their clothes? ;) ) nor did i buy anything...then came home, stopped by at allison's to pick up my cd and say bye :(
after that, i came home, went to bed, and then of course started fighting with boyfriend again. i am so confused and hurt and a lot of other things right now. is it smart that we move in together without him having a job, i don't have a salary to support 2 people and i don't want to have that stress, so i say why not move down here, get a job, get an apt until we have enough money for a ring/marriage, etc. he says that would be more expensive (probably)...and i'm hurt b/c i do have beliefs about moving in together and not really feeling comfortable about it...i mean, shouldn't that be taken into consideration? (on a side note: i have said it was a good idea before, then i started thinking about. just giving him a fair trial). it is just soo frustrating. and there have been tears and ugly words spoken...a LOT of ugly words spoken. we are both being selfish, so that kind of sucks. i'm sad.
i want to move out already. now i have to wait until september...again? i thought it had already been sent in for the 7 days, but apparently not. that makes me mad. i'm ready to sign these damn papers...i don't even have any furniture, that's AWESOME. and i want a dog, really bad.
i just got an invite to a co-worker's wedding, i don't really know her, so i prob. won't go, besides it looks like that will be the weekend i should move in most of my stuff...so oh well. this week sucks so far. awesome.
