"the grass is always greener on the other side"--travis
hi
yesterday was once again emotional...thanks all you guys for your comments. i appreciate them.
i got home from work, ate dinner, started laundry and andy called me...and quiet and basically said he needed time to think about stuff...this scares me. i am still scared, and hurt and a whole mix of other emotions. i don't know what to think, i talked to shawna for a bit, then went ot meet carosa at barnes & noble...both very good and thanks for listening ladies. i just don't know what to think or do. i had a horrible dream last night that he broke up with me and started finding other girls to date within hours...wow, what the hell is wrong with me?
today we're talking, but he doesn't want to talk over IM or phone about the issues and is asking me to go up to waco. i want to, but everytime i think about him i tear up...i don't know what's going to happen, and i'm very very scared. i can't help that. i WANT to see him and WANT to try to talk it out, but i don't think i'll be able to talk a lot, just feel like its going to be a lot of crying. it may not happen like that, that's just how i feel today.
my mom wants to have lunch with me today, she forgot all her credit cards/ID so she needs gas money...i feel like our roles just got switched around. i'm not even hungry.
boo to shea who is trying to sell her dave matthews ticket!
brandon called me yesterday and said that the loan stuff is fine they just need my school transcripts...wtf? anyways baylor is being retarded about that, so i'm about to call them back. if everything goes well, i get to close on the 26th! hi, that's next week! :)
peace out
yesterday was once again emotional...thanks all you guys for your comments. i appreciate them.
i got home from work, ate dinner, started laundry and andy called me...and quiet and basically said he needed time to think about stuff...this scares me. i am still scared, and hurt and a whole mix of other emotions. i don't know what to think, i talked to shawna for a bit, then went ot meet carosa at barnes & noble...both very good and thanks for listening ladies. i just don't know what to think or do. i had a horrible dream last night that he broke up with me and started finding other girls to date within hours...wow, what the hell is wrong with me?
today we're talking, but he doesn't want to talk over IM or phone about the issues and is asking me to go up to waco. i want to, but everytime i think about him i tear up...i don't know what's going to happen, and i'm very very scared. i can't help that. i WANT to see him and WANT to try to talk it out, but i don't think i'll be able to talk a lot, just feel like its going to be a lot of crying. it may not happen like that, that's just how i feel today.
my mom wants to have lunch with me today, she forgot all her credit cards/ID so she needs gas money...i feel like our roles just got switched around. i'm not even hungry.
boo to shea who is trying to sell her dave matthews ticket!
brandon called me yesterday and said that the loan stuff is fine they just need my school transcripts...wtf? anyways baylor is being retarded about that, so i'm about to call them back. if everything goes well, i get to close on the 26th! hi, that's next week! :)
peace out
