"i guess the Lord knows what he's doing, after all" - garth brooks
hello all,
well last weekend i was in okc with chris and it was great, a really perfect weekend. i was so stressed from work i just wanted to do a whole lot of nothing and it was just good. we went to dinner, had drinks at our fav wine bar, went swimming, shopping, watched football, slept. it was good. :) he also has a wedding next weekend and will be flying into austin before flying to south carolina so he'll be here on thursday just for the night so i'll see him then, but after that our longest stretch of not seeing each other since he's been here will start, boo. i won't get to see him again til the 26th of oct. b.o.o. anyway things are really really great. he has a job, he officially starts jan 20th i believe. (yes it's a sunday but in the middle east, their weeks are sat - weds and weekends thurs-fri)
so this week at work hasn't been as stressful as the previous ones but i feel that i'm not getting my normal stuff done bc/ i have to focus all on this one database, boo. oh well, no one can tell me i'm not doing my job.
so i really wanted to vent just a little bit and this honestly has nothing to do with anyone specific and especially not readers of this blog. but the kingdom comes out today, i'm really really excited to see it, but one of the previews i've seen kind of tells me that i wont like it b/c they are making saudis seem like what the media has portrayed all middle eastern people/countries to be aka not great. anyway that leads me to my real point, last night at dinner, my mom was complaining about this couch that my dad had to buy (long story) and that she had waited so long to buy furniture that she liked and she STILL didn' thave any and i told her "mom, if i move to saudi, you can have mine", apparently the subject of me possibly moving has not been a topic of discussion with my aunt and cousin and of course the things that came out of their mouths were ridiculous, uninformed and of concern i'm sure. such things like "this is a bad time to go there" or "don't they go onto compounds and just shoot people?" (why yes, it is a national pasttime of theirs...note that the compound shooting that i'm aware of was not actually ON the compound, they never got ONTO the compound, rumors are the guy they killed who was waiting at the gate was actually being targeted). also, security there is beyond anything anyone can imagine, i remember what it was like when *I* lived there and it's only more secure now. i've seen pictures of a school i once attended where you could at one time walk and see everything is now surrounded by 8 foot tall CONCRETE walls. i'm not going to go into details, but i think the main thing is that *I* would feel safe going there and that *I'm* excited, not to mention that my mom and dad are really excited for me and that's really all i need. although if i really wanted to go and they were iffy about it, it may not affect my decision but would make it harder to do i think.
i'm basically just frustrated with the fact that if i tell people i may move they get very overprotective and ask WHY? and in turn i get defensive. i don't know why but it makes me feel that people think i am making this or any other decision in my life on a whim. i have never been the kind of person to make rash decisions (hello broken rules girl? not me.) it's not on a whim, i knew from day one (and i've said this before) that chris wanted to move overseas, if i didn't think that i wanted or could handle that lifestyle again why even start dating him? it's been over a year since we've been dating and by the time he gets settled there and we would even THINK about me moving there, it would be another year at least. i think that i've had plenty of time to think about what this means and would entail. it's not like i'm moving next week, or month or even in 6 months. stop making me feel like i'm making an unknowing decision. i understand that people just may not get it and are concerned and want to make sure i know what i'm doing, but i know that i do. there is no doubt in my mind and 3 long distance relationships later, believe me, i know that doubt and i have never had it in this relationship or about these decisions.
in any case, i think it's really exciting, the more i've thought about it the more i know this is a lifestyle i had at one time been very accustomed to. for almost 15 years i lived mainly in a foreign country, one that everytime i came back to visit the states begged my mom to take me back "home" to. one that allowed me to experience all sorts of cultures, countries and food. make lifelong friends that no matter how long it's been since we have talked, reuniting is never awkward or uncomfortable. one that at times i miss terribly. i was and am very lucky to have had all of those experiences and am excited to know there is a very high possibility of going back there again. i know that that life is not for everyone and i understand that and i understand why my decisions may receive some very raised eyebrows and questions. but i just wish people would understand that i HAVE thought about what this means for me and my life.
like i said, not towards anyone specific or my readers, just a main venting. probably something i've vented about before. but it's my blog and i can write whatever i want. le sigh.
also dvr decided last night it would not record grey's, but i saw it this morning anyway...why so whiny? haven't had a chance to watch big shots, but michael vartan is in it and about 90% of the reason i used to watch alias, so i can't wait!
anyway, sorry about the drag of a post, i really needed to get that out, and its' better than yelling at people or being grumpy all day. i feel much better. this weekend is carosa's bachelorette party and we are sending her off into the married world in a whole lot of inappropriate style! note: i will only post photos that are appropriate hehe.
have a great weekend!
well last weekend i was in okc with chris and it was great, a really perfect weekend. i was so stressed from work i just wanted to do a whole lot of nothing and it was just good. we went to dinner, had drinks at our fav wine bar, went swimming, shopping, watched football, slept. it was good. :) he also has a wedding next weekend and will be flying into austin before flying to south carolina so he'll be here on thursday just for the night so i'll see him then, but after that our longest stretch of not seeing each other since he's been here will start, boo. i won't get to see him again til the 26th of oct. b.o.o. anyway things are really really great. he has a job, he officially starts jan 20th i believe. (yes it's a sunday but in the middle east, their weeks are sat - weds and weekends thurs-fri)
so this week at work hasn't been as stressful as the previous ones but i feel that i'm not getting my normal stuff done bc/ i have to focus all on this one database, boo. oh well, no one can tell me i'm not doing my job.
so i really wanted to vent just a little bit and this honestly has nothing to do with anyone specific and especially not readers of this blog. but the kingdom comes out today, i'm really really excited to see it, but one of the previews i've seen kind of tells me that i wont like it b/c they are making saudis seem like what the media has portrayed all middle eastern people/countries to be aka not great. anyway that leads me to my real point, last night at dinner, my mom was complaining about this couch that my dad had to buy (long story) and that she had waited so long to buy furniture that she liked and she STILL didn' thave any and i told her "mom, if i move to saudi, you can have mine", apparently the subject of me possibly moving has not been a topic of discussion with my aunt and cousin and of course the things that came out of their mouths were ridiculous, uninformed and of concern i'm sure. such things like "this is a bad time to go there" or "don't they go onto compounds and just shoot people?" (why yes, it is a national pasttime of theirs...note that the compound shooting that i'm aware of was not actually ON the compound, they never got ONTO the compound, rumors are the guy they killed who was waiting at the gate was actually being targeted). also, security there is beyond anything anyone can imagine, i remember what it was like when *I* lived there and it's only more secure now. i've seen pictures of a school i once attended where you could at one time walk and see everything is now surrounded by 8 foot tall CONCRETE walls. i'm not going to go into details, but i think the main thing is that *I* would feel safe going there and that *I'm* excited, not to mention that my mom and dad are really excited for me and that's really all i need. although if i really wanted to go and they were iffy about it, it may not affect my decision but would make it harder to do i think.
i'm basically just frustrated with the fact that if i tell people i may move they get very overprotective and ask WHY? and in turn i get defensive. i don't know why but it makes me feel that people think i am making this or any other decision in my life on a whim. i have never been the kind of person to make rash decisions (hello broken rules girl? not me.) it's not on a whim, i knew from day one (and i've said this before) that chris wanted to move overseas, if i didn't think that i wanted or could handle that lifestyle again why even start dating him? it's been over a year since we've been dating and by the time he gets settled there and we would even THINK about me moving there, it would be another year at least. i think that i've had plenty of time to think about what this means and would entail. it's not like i'm moving next week, or month or even in 6 months. stop making me feel like i'm making an unknowing decision. i understand that people just may not get it and are concerned and want to make sure i know what i'm doing, but i know that i do. there is no doubt in my mind and 3 long distance relationships later, believe me, i know that doubt and i have never had it in this relationship or about these decisions.
in any case, i think it's really exciting, the more i've thought about it the more i know this is a lifestyle i had at one time been very accustomed to. for almost 15 years i lived mainly in a foreign country, one that everytime i came back to visit the states begged my mom to take me back "home" to. one that allowed me to experience all sorts of cultures, countries and food. make lifelong friends that no matter how long it's been since we have talked, reuniting is never awkward or uncomfortable. one that at times i miss terribly. i was and am very lucky to have had all of those experiences and am excited to know there is a very high possibility of going back there again. i know that that life is not for everyone and i understand that and i understand why my decisions may receive some very raised eyebrows and questions. but i just wish people would understand that i HAVE thought about what this means for me and my life.
like i said, not towards anyone specific or my readers, just a main venting. probably something i've vented about before. but it's my blog and i can write whatever i want. le sigh.
also dvr decided last night it would not record grey's, but i saw it this morning anyway...why so whiny? haven't had a chance to watch big shots, but michael vartan is in it and about 90% of the reason i used to watch alias, so i can't wait!
anyway, sorry about the drag of a post, i really needed to get that out, and its' better than yelling at people or being grumpy all day. i feel much better. this weekend is carosa's bachelorette party and we are sending her off into the married world in a whole lot of inappropriate style! note: i will only post photos that are appropriate hehe.
have a great weekend!
