have you had your latin kiss today?

"After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away."--carrie, SaTC

06 June 2005

"but you can't hide, standing under these stars"--guster

so i went to bed at like 10pm last night, awesome, i'm really still tired today, i guess trying to get over this weekend...wouldn't it be nice if i had a work laptop and I could work from home?? yes, because that's what my boss is doing today! argh! which is fine, i just closed my door, i'll be a hermit for today, and i have stuff to do...*sigh* and i'll leave early ;)

what a day so far and it's not even 10am. i got a letter in the mail that said, my request for loan consolidation has been CANCELLED?! wtf?! it gave me a list of reasons why it could be, like my loans are less than $10,500 (ok no), my loans are in default (does that mean grace period? that seems stupid), they are all through private loan programs (only half?), i'm already consolidated?! (um NO!), i requested a cancellation (hell, NO!)

i am about to cry, seriously, if i can't consolidate, i will seriously have to find another job that pays me more, i have TWO (2) loan payments, which equal $700, and i appreciate the free rent and food from my parents, but i want to MOVE OUT, that's the idea with growing up, and i appreciate my mom trying to help me if she sells a few more houses, but she's playing in mexico or something and that's not doing me any good. anyway, the issue is that $700 + an $800 house payment, really leaves me very little to live on, so therefore, crying will ensue

i called my loan rep and am waiting for a call back, i don't want to be obnoxious, but this is my freakin' life.

holy crap.